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Focus On The Mountain

I know that I talked about choosing a template in my last post but I just had to come back to it because there was something else that interested me about the picture. If you look at it, you can see that there is a mountain in the background but the picture is focused on the rain.

Ain't that the truth.

I feel like sometimes I am too focused on the rain that I cannot see the wonderful mountain that is in the background. I know that rain is good for the earth. It helps things grow and brings renewal. It can also bring destruction. Maybe that is why I am so cognizant of the rain. I know that it can hurt and destroy. I know that it comes when you least expect it. I know that it always shows up when you don't want it.

Hm...maybe I need to change my perspective. If I were to look at the rain as a blessing rather than an inconvenience I would probably love it a lot more. Rain is great when you have the right equipment. You know, umbrellas, raincoat, rain boots, ability to stay inside until the rain stops. It can be real cozy when you are inside with a cup of coffee or awesome when you find some mud to slip around in.

I guess it is always about your perspective. Maybe someday I will be able to focus on the beautiful mountain and not just the rain.

Peace and Love.
Celisse


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